You have to put one foot in front of the other....That line applies to so many things...
When life get's tough we tell our selves to put one foot in front of the other and carry on. When we have a huge project that seems to overwhelm us, we do it.
For me I am using this for 2 things. I'll tell you about thing one...
My running obviously, I have let myself down in this area. I was once on my way to being a serious runner. 4 1/2 marathons, 10 5k's , and 1 full marathon. I trained for 4 months to run that marathon I worked my butt off. Miles upon miles upon miles logged to get to this one day. For some reason I believed that running a marathon was going to change my life, make me skinny, and open a new door of running for me. I bet the farm on this marathon. Not one of my best bets.
It did not make me skinny, (I actually gained 7 pounds during training) I was hungry all the time. I did not make the best food choices. I did not cross train as I should. I just ran and ran.
I ran the 2011 Seattle Marathon. in just under 6 hours. 30 minutes off my training pace. It rained for every minute of those 6 hours. I got to mile 18 ahead of pace and feeling pretty good actually. Then the worst set of hills came on for the next 6 miles. I have never hurt so bad in my life. My legs kinda stopped working, so I had to walk more than I wanted, but I was still doing it! I self talked the whole way. I finished, my parents were there my fiance (then boyfriend) my good friend were there. I cried and I cried and have never been more proud of myself in my life as I was that day!
Then something happened that I had not heard of... The after marathon blues set in. I should have signed up for my next race like everyone told me to. I should have started training for my next goal. Instead stopped running. I felt like the day after Christmas for almost 5 months. I have ran a few things since then. For a while I thught I lost my running mojo. But days when I would force myself to get out there I would feel the love and rush.
I love running, sometimes I just don't love myself enough to do it... Running makeS me feel like a rockstar, super human even. Like I can take on the world. Until recently I didn't let myself have that...
Running another marathon may or may not happen. I haven't decided. Honestly there is a lot of fear thinking about it.
What I do know for sure is, I am going to put one foot in front of the other and run. Run because I love it, because it make me feel alive, my inner Rock Star needs to come out again and I want to tak eon my world head on...
